How much strength it takes to act like you don’t know him? To not make eye contact with the one thing that meant the most to you? And yet, he’ll never know. He’ll never know how many times you typed ‘I miss you’ and then deleted it. He’ll never know how many times you dialed his number and didn’t press call. He’ll never know how much it hurts, right?
I think one of the saddest things is when two people really get to know each other: their secrets, their fears, their favourite things, what they love, what they hate, literally everything, and then they go back to being strangers. It’s like you have to walk past them and pretend like you never knew them, never even talked to them before, when really, you know everything about them.
I know this is not suppose to be like this but I think this is the right thing to do. I’m scared to be drawn to you that much because i know someday you’ll find out that i’m not that girl you’re looking for. I’m not that ideal girl you always dream about. I’m covered with flaws and i’m hiding it so that you cant see the stains of how complicated I am to be loved. I know you would say “I don’t care because I love you and I will accept everything about you" but no. This isn’t the scenario i’m seeing few years from now. I hate the fact to be close to any of the guy who thinks i’m the right girl for them because honestly, I am not. I know we’ve gone too far to give things between us up but if I wouldn’t stop this connections we have, i’m sure were gonna hurt both ourselves someday and I wouldn’t like to see you hurting. I know this would hurt too but i’m saving you to massive pain someday. I know you would thank me when that time comes. I always want what’s best for you and I do apologize if its not with me because I remember I said that I wouldn’t leave you no matter what but it has to be this way. I have to let go of you. We need to part ways, love.